The running logbook for The Desire, back to well before it’s construction – starting in January of 2022.
I really hate not having my model to look at when I’m streaming. I know I shouldn’t be so reliant on it but damn it made things easier. *sigh* I wish Throne was faster about getting everything and sending me the item that got crowdfunded.
Short entry today, I’m just… mad. It’s no ones fault but my own for not taking care of my current iPhone. I will do better with the new one you all generously chipped in for. Love you. -Tan ?
Hey there Cuties, so I felt obligated to share this little adventure with you all. The other day while doing my tribal quests for the fae, and leveling Sage my audio abruptly cut out, but only in game. Everything else was working. Music, other games, all fine. Just Final Fantasy.
So of course I start looking up fixes. Check it’s not muted in game. Check it’s listed in the Windows audio mixer (it was). Make sure you have your device plugged in, etc etc. Like – ok I get people need the help, but genuinely I could not find a solution to my issue.
One thing to try was fullscreening then windowing the app. What?! How badly optimized is this game that refreshing the render queue like that will literally FIX AUDIO issues? ffs.. I was doomed.
I’d tried uninstalling/reinstalling and spent HOURS on this. I was about to just give up. Last thing I hadn’t actually tried yet was to re-load audio drivers. Fine, I thought, lets make sure to cover all the bases. So I went into the Sound Properties in Windows of the sound device, and do you know what I found?
You know how some sound cards or motherboards have sound effects you can enable like.. echo? Or Bass+ or Headphone Room Emulation, like Hall or Studio, things like that? This graphic is what was present on my sound driver. Just this one checkbox dedicated to disabling all sound effects – of which there were none to actually select. It was checked. I un-checked it and FF started playing audio again.
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So anyway that was my Friday night, how was yours? Love your faces!! -Tan ?
Hey, Cuties! I just wanted to let you know if I’m taking time off or starting at weird times – my body is just.. not cooperating lately. I’m super tired and sleeping a lot. Dunno if I caught something or not but I can still smell and taste so.. not sure what’s up.
Short blog, like I said, I’m beat. I love all your faces, thank you everyone for the support so far this year. ? -Tan
So I put out a distress beacon yesterday – my iPhone X that I use to VTube with (because it has the FaceID chip in it) is bulging, meaning the battery is ready to freakin explode.
I bought it in July 2021. It’s last a year and a half just being my VTubing camera. And of course I’ve dropped it multiple times, and not ever had it off the charger. I will be better about the new phone.
Oh right, new phone. I put out that distress call and YOU ALL ANSWERED WITHIN 24 HOURS WTF!!
I am literally in tears (happy ones). Thank you all so much. I don’t have any way to repay you other than to just.. get back to streaming with the model as soon as it arrives. I can’t wait. Love all your faces. – Tan ?
3rd place goes to Toa47 with Peefus finisher!
The 2nd place winner is HarmonyEternal with Nature’s a Slut!
And in 1st place with It’s not Birthday Cake is MavisDeLuna!
Enjoy your packs of Streamloots cards!
Thank you everyone for participating, and clipping! Please keep it up it’s been super helpful to come up with content for Youtube and Tiktok!! New month is already underway!
Thank you again, love your faces!! ? -Tan
I need to retire. LOL! I’ve still got a number of years I need to work before I can safely retire, you know, unless one of you is an oil baron and wants to just shower me with money. XD
That aside, it’s always rough getting back into the ‘normal’ swing of things after the holidays. I truly think we aren’t meant to work every day like we do. I wish streaming and creating content is all I had to do all day. I love doing it. It’s literally my creative passion! Ah well, such is life right now I guess.
Quick update about the December 2022 Clip Contest – I’m broke. Starting this year (which includes this contest) and going forward I have to give prizes I can afford, so I apologize if there’s any hurt feelings. Plus, giving out Amazon Gift Cards is a giant pain in the keister. Streamloots is much simpler. I hope you will all continue clipping, it helps me out greatly!!
Anyway that’s all I’ve got for you today – love your faces!! – Tan ?
I was trying to think of a word to describe trying to get my sleep schedule back on track since I’m back to work tomorrow, holidays are over and it’s time to act like a responsible adult again.
Apparently ‘reacclimating’ either isn’t one, or it’s not recognized by Word Press. Well whatever, it makes an interesting title.
So yeah, time to say goodbye to sleeping whenever I want (never if possible) doing whatever I want (sleeping whenever I want) and all that fun stuff. I’ve been talking to my mom more on Sundays again so that’s good. Helps keep me grounded I guess.
I have *GOT* to lose weight. I’m going to try only having liquid today. If I feel like I can do that (because I have in the past) then I’m going on a not-juice cleanse. I need it so badly. So – last time I did liquid only I had all 4 wisdom teeth removed and had my mouth wired shut for a couple weeks. Lost 20 lbs. Gonna try that again lol. Protein shakes, soup and water. MMm. Mmm! Ugh.
FOR LEGAL REASONS I RECOMMEND NO ONE DO THIS UNTIL YOU CONSULT YOUR DOCTOR OR EVER.
Love your faces, cuties. -Tan ?
Well, here we are! It’s 2023. 2022 is in the rearview and holy crap. This time last year I was a cis male with a duck avatar. Bascially. ? Now I’m a transwoman lesbian and am using my 20+ year old gaming avatar that I’ve built up as my new identity and it feels niiiiiiiice. @#^& I’ve been stupid for so long.
Time to recap. I did a TikTok but I think i need to do it more linear justice:
2021
December – Find out Tanandra.com is available on a whim as I had been using a ripped model from that one MMO about being the last fantasy… *cough* ask me on stream I’ll tell you. I buy Tanandra.com and rebrand *everything* because I was actually ENJOYING streaming again.
2022
January – Decide I need to feminize my voice. But yeah, I’m not trans. Voice changers just suck, I can learn to be a kick ass e-girl. Also founded the Bean Stream Team to have my streamer friends in a team.
February – Well that didn’t last long, I guess I’m trans now. Start HRT on the down low.
March – Start HRT on the up high, with a doctor checking my blood. No more shady stuff. KingOfNightmare sands the rough edges off my model. Thank you, King for version 1.5! ?
April – Freak out and block people on socials. Isolate even harder.
May – Un-freak out. Work up the nerve to come out to Family, In-Laws.
June – Come out at work. Find that I cry a lot more now. I mean, I was a crybaby before but now the tears just flow. Get the model I was using replaced with a muuuch better one. Thank you KingOfNightmare for version 2.0. ?
July – I met more awesome people on the internet.
August – I join PridePrism as a member of Wave 1: Courage
September – Starting to dress more feminine. Just a little, I’m not ready for sundresses yet. But I love it. I still will not go outside unless dressed plain. Very self-conscious that I don’t look how I want. (Still am.)
October – Fix up the gym to start using it regularly – then immediately discover a physical issue that I can’t address just yet. Hooray to being fat forever. ?
November – Hair is growing out, but not forward of course. Keep in mind I was BALD up until February of this year. Actual chill month. I spent a lot of time supporting friends and loved ones and learning more about myself.
December – Guess what, I have autism! Guess what, I have ADHD! Guess what .. arrrghhhh Why has so much shit just gone.. undiagnosed or undiscovered in my life?! Oh, but at least I got version 3.0 of my Tanandra model! Thank you again, KingOfNightmare!! ? (It’s got more than one outfit!!)
So there you go, there’s 2022 summed up for me. Sheeeeesh I hope 2023 is less rollercoaster and more rock and roll. Let’s find out together, cuties!! Love your faces!! – Tan ?????
Ugh. I can’t get my sleeping schedule to even out and this is my last week of vacation time. I get Monday off next week and then that’s it. Maybe being back on a regular work schedule will help but somehow I doubt it.
I’m exhausted. Somehow I missed updating the schedule on the main page. I told JamieVoiceOver that I’ve just got too many moving parts to all this. I can’t keep it all in my brain but at the same time it seems silly because it’s not really THAT much, but I can’t do it.
Getting back into FF:XIV feels nice. I like having a good ol’ MMO on the roster. I have *things* to do. Even if they aren’t super important, it’s chill to just chase down easy quests. More later. Love your faces!! ? -Tan
