This Is An Open Letter.

This is an open letter to those I cut out of my life that might eventually read this:

I am sorry. 
I was scared. 
I didn’t know what to do and I panicked.

You know, you think you are ready for anything and you are ready to rely on your friends and nothing’s gonna stand in your way, not tonight!! Transformers power ballad aside, I know I fucked up, and again, I’m sorry.

I was so deathly afraid to transition in the real world, but I needed it so badly that I thought the only solution was to literally isolate myself and just get it done.  But here I am just about 6 months in and I’m feeling sheepish.  Hell if Will Smith can apologize 6 months later, so can I.

If you can’t accept it, I totally get it and it would be for the best if we both just moved on. 

If you can though, please let me know. I’ll get you a beer or something. Thanks.

-Tan

P.S.: If you don’t know if this applies to you it doesn’t. 🙂 Still love you anyway!

P.S.S: If you haven’t guessed since the last blog post – yeah I’m on HRT, it’s been 2 months. Still fat. X(

P.S.S.S.: No I don’t expect estrogen to make me thin, I understand how this.. nevermind.